choke on this soul

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 20:49:22 GMT

Pizza hut now delivers too me YES !

yeah

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 02:50:37 GMT

tonight i watched house yeah baby
   gave me chills like those good shows do
        i went to the bank and did some cool stuff
             sipped some bacardi too WHat everyone has their own Chill sometimes
My house is pretty fresh as usual (cleaning everyday is kEy lol )
P.S. I love to cook I do it everyday :)
TOday my cool dish was potatoe skins
      yeah yum
of course everyday i make breakfast lunch and dinner
but that was the best thing i made ... whos the chef ? me
Anybody need some cooking advice or a recipe seriously i can give it :)
IM Off to bed now damian has his 1 year doc appt tommorow means shots . ouch

Boring day

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 03:01:55 GMT

BLeh well the most I did today was pay the bills
WOw awsome
At least I went out haha
Saying that stuff makes me feel old but in reality I don't
I've been steady watching american idol ... and they are all like yea im 20 21 22
Im like o0o thats like me im 21 thats my age right there on tv
but they all look way older than me
at least to me
its weird i guess hard to describe .. like yeah im an adult like her
but i look like a teen still ... kinda feel it too . shouldnt I look like that ? lol
who knows but im gonna keep watching idol
and I hope i get to go shopping tommorow
this money is burning a hole in my pocket
My man gaged his ears again on a wim just came home with them
they are this big silver swirls with stars on them
i can almost put it in my ear
i used to have my left gaged
but im too in love with the girly earings right now
ill stick to the glam
anywho he looks cute
weird
i was never a gage lover or nothing but it def gives him a lil extra sparkle :P in a manly way beardy goatee way

Valentines Day

Sun, 15 Feb 2009 04:35:37 GMT

yah so0o today was valentines Day Yahah
lolz well I never really had a big one
last year Damien and I exchanged chocolates and cards and
he got me roses <3
But this year we been through a little rough patches
and the night before he surprised me with a beautiful ruby heart ring with diamonds
surronding it madd cute!!!
and gorgous
and for vday I got the matching necklace !
I never got anything so sweet or so nice
they are the nicest peices to my jewelry collection besides my engagment ring
I really love my heart ring right now though lolz!!!!
Anyway I had a nice relaxing day ....
Damien went out a lil bit in the afternoon but when he came back me him and his cuz kev
played some poker and added a lil twist with some bud .. lol neat
we also added some ren and stimpy dvds
AWSOME
afterwards when baby was done playing wildly with his toys and sound sleep and
kevin was off at home me and damien had our sexi valentine night lol~!
And now I must go to bed in hopes to grab some grocerys tommorow !
peACE

lol RB ouch

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 18:00:21 GMT

Everything is so0o crazy now
I'm so confused all the time
Happy .. and then not ..
such a bummer sometimes
I def. don't know what is in store for my future but
I do know that my son is amazing and super cute!
He was walking all around the laundry mat today trying to help me do the
Laundry .. pushing the carts and opening and closing the machines lol
so cute . hes awsome lol
He could keep anyone pushing on
It was a beautiful day today I'm super excited for spring its great to breath that fresh air
Its also great to go out and about and do shit
I have some cool spring/ summer plans but who knows what will happen
GOing to go wake my baby and chill out
Windows open

yayayayya

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 02:24:09 GMT

I just went to chuckie cheese today lolz! wahoo
yeah that was fun
my baby cried on the baby rides
he is a scaredy cat.... more a mommas boy .. but scared of new things .
anywho once he warms up he is fine he played the games where you just had
to push a button that was good for him
rides dont teach him nothing anyway lol
i played basketball and beat all the guys yeah!
played skiball too but it was gay with like rubbery balls and my machine
was rigth next to the basketball machine and one of my balls flew in between and
got stuck between the machines lol! i l was like omg whoops but when i looked there was
madd balls stuck in between there haha

anyway my crazy man bought madd tokens so im probally onna go back tommroow to another chuck
I plan to go to the park tommorow. The weather is going to be sexy .. Fuck yeah ! .. cant wait ..
Everyone is sleeping except me . I have to hit the sack lol
Tommorow will be the first day I take damian to a big ole park for him to play in .. very cool
its awsome to see him happy and explore .

Memories are so0o Haunting
makes you want to talk to Ghosts

blah

Wed, 04 Feb 2009 17:37:34 GMT

So my baby had his first bday !
AMazing RIght >?
1 whole year has gone by
His very first bday ... Its a strange feeling singing him happy bday and everything.
He got great gifts ... he now has 3 vtech systems thats gangster in the baby world .. lol
he don't care though .
he could play with a box all day .. babys don't care about things like that no one should
Anywho I love him to peices who wouldnt he is great
SO lucky to have a baby with a great personality .. o0o yeah and a mommas boy lol
Gonna be attached to the hip for life .. :)
My boy is walking and speaking his own language wich consists of a lot of d and t and ga sounds he says tickle and dont touch that and dada mama baba gaga all kinds of baby jabber lol and hahaha
he can touch his nose his ears and hair and head .. he can brush his hair and teeth .. smart but other times im like what the hell is he thinking ..
he is starting to copy me
he sweeps and vacums lol well tries to anyway
also he will pick up a baby wipes and start to wipe down the table or try to scrub the carpet
so0o cute but strange too all from watching me clean
i gotta get him a baby cleaning set

gotta go make us some lunch peace

hey hey hey

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 20:34:09 GMT

So today I have been on the computer a LOT a LOt ... looking for a job ...
Everything is so topsy turvy right now ...
Like EVeRyTHing
I'm hoping to find a night shift somewhere so Damien can come home and watch the baby while i work
What I am also hoping for is that I can find some one to babsit out of my home
this way I could just continue being the homemaker lol and make some money to save up and help pay the bills and such ...
Whatever happens is fine with me but one needs to happen soon .
SOmething does..
Tax Return will be nice
But I want to make some money you ~~know'?~~
yeah
Go obama we will see im hoping for him too hope

tired

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 01:27:55 GMT

So muh baby turns one soon
I m having a lil party
gonna be cute
I'm excited and nervous at the same time how the hell he get a year old already lol
he is growing great he is healthy and smart what more could i ask for ?
and he loves me lol thats whats important to me <3 lots of love and kisses
ill be kissing him forever who cares if he is in high school lol
anyway i remember his first attempts at crawling and now he can crawl all over
and his first steps and now he is a dam good wobbly walker
i see how he understands things
i remember the first time he ever ate
and now he eats all kinds of foods and feeds himself
now he will turn 1 and there is so0o much more too come
he will turn his babble int o some good talking i hope lol !
and more
excited to give him his bday gifts and see him eat his first peice of bday cake lol
super tired nightz

THe Future is a heckteck better know what your doing place

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 03:14:29 GMT

so I went to the new shoprite today that was insane .. super crowded ...cool kinda ... but jeez they are just trying to squeeze ~~mall~~ into super market or asian buffet ...liquor store ..ect.. anyway not going back lol

SO I have so much ~~shit~~ to do its not even funny ... ugh
Heres my list lets hope to getting it done asap and getting some help

1. going to WIc and getting my dam checks fix (fuck ups)
2. getting the ~~fucking~~ laundry done
3. plan and prepare sons 1st bday party.
4. get nephews their bday presents also
5. order digital box and cable.
6 pay the bills
amoungst cleaning house and cooking and all that fun crap lol
who knows im prolly missing something like me time naw dont even want to write it in lol
thank god i did grocery shopping today

im just so ahh get everything done.
goodnight

hoping for some good luck

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 04:19:07 GMT

SO MY PLAN IS TO GET ONE OF THOSE HARD BOOKS WITH THE BLACK COVERS ... YOU KNOW WITH THE ALL BLANK WHITE PAGES INSIDE .... IF YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT THEN YOU DO IF NOT WELL ....iMAgINE ... ANYWHO ... i WANT TO MAKE A BABY JOURNAL ... SOUNDS GAY BUT NO NOT REALLY SO0O MANY TIMES I HAVE LOOKED AT OTHER CHILDREN AND WELL .. LAUGHED MY ASS OFF LOL .. AND OTHER THINGS LIKE WOW I UNDERSTAND THEM .. OR HEY LOOK WHAT THEY OR DOING I WILL NEVER FORGET .... BUT SHIT GUESS WHAT i FORGET .. BUT I REMEMBER THOSE GOOD ASS LAUGHS AND MEMEORIES WITH THEM KIDS .... KINDA LIKE PEOPLE .. ANYWHO ..NOW THAT i HAVE MY SON I CAN DO SOMETHING CUTE AND CREATIVE ...(SINCE I HAVE A PROBLEM PLACING MY CREATIVITY ) AND MAKE A LIL BABY JOURNAL .... NOW THIS IS NOT AN EVERYDAY THING .... BUT IS VERY CREATIVE AND KNOWLEGABLE
(SPELL CHECK ) ANYWHO ...FOR INSTANCE i WILL START ON WHAT I REMEMBER LIKE HIM CRAWLING EATING WALKING ECT ... AND MAKE A PAGE FOR EACH .... I CAN DRAW LIL DRAWINGS FOR EACH PAGE OR ADD STICKERS OR WHATEVER THE FRICK I FIND LOL AYHWHO LOL ! IT WILL BE CUTE AND i COULD KEEP GOING WITH IT FOR YEARS TO COME .... i WOULD FINALLY GIVE THIS JOURNAL TO MY SON WHEN HE WAS AN ADULT OR WHEN I FELT NESSACARY .. ITS A PLAN

AS FAR AS OTHER THINGS
OK WITH YOU
LOVE YOU
LOVE YOU KINDA
YOU NEED COUNSLING BUT IM HERE AND I LOVE YOU
YOUR IN MY DREAMS AND IM NOT IN YOURS BUT YOUR ALL AROUND ME SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN PUNK

Black fingernails

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 04:02:56 GMT

I'm starting the new year out with a bang literally

WaTch OUt FOr Me THIs YeaR Im FUCkin NUTs

SO tonight I saw a funny movie called stepbrothers I also did some other crap lol
My dad came and saw my house for the first time wahoo
but we did go to the bar the other night and that was a special treat

0o yeah and cant forget my second pictionary attempt ... cheese and wine plz

PretENd is only fun when your lil

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 18:35:55 GMT

SO I turned 21 yesterday WHAOo lol
It was a fun sweet day
BOth grandmas called me and gave cards aww
and I went out to PA in the day for cake rummi and some jack and coke :P
DOnt forget PIzza and RAnch yum yum
Its the first time I had a cake in years and blew out the candles and all that aww
LAter I bought my own alcohol at the liquor store I was stared down like wtf die s this kid think she is doin with that stuff ? but showed my I.D saying its my days and walked out unscarred lol !
I had a fun night with my hunni and ordered some good grub.
I actually didn't let myself get too typsy hehe
and thank god no hangover today
lovely 21
I can't wait to go out and order a drink that will be my next fun night :)

ANywho more important things then that .. glad its not freezing today
so0 happy about my holidays
and I def got the best hoody ever yesterday
cant be glum I suppose

outz

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 03:48:08 GMT

So0o excited for Christmas!

My LuCky Day

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 04:38:48 GMT

TodaY I went to Dave and Busters wahoo!
With mom tom katie and lil damian
I played pool (won)
ate yummie food
and went to play some games :)
I played skiball , basketball ect.
as we went to play airhockey there was this big chance game
of spinning lights on the wall (a giant wheel of bulbs )
I was like I can get tickets like this lets start my gamble chances now lol
so SwIPE and pull ...... and stop baNg STOpped Right on 1000 TICKetS !!!!
so0o crazy took forever for all the tickets to come out lol !!!!

Later I went to target finished my xmas shoppin yay
nothing like popcorn and shopin at target lol

I had baked ziti for dinner at my moms and played flippin frogs lol awsome as hell buy it ha

Then Put my tater tot to bed and relaxed at home yawn BED

HMM>

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 04:30:22 GMT

Why is life such a mental fight ?
Am I good enough?
Am I doing a good enough job?
Did I say the right thing?
Can I make it on a place like that or with people like that?
Why is CoNFIdENcE soo0 hard .. And the people that have it
so0o mean .. It's like if I have confidence will I become cOcky like ThAt?
Will I say mean things to hurt others?
Its so0o hard to be sensitive .. expecially in a world where no one cares about your miniscule (spell check )< feelings of worry
Why can't we all get along? Why can people be so close one moment but in a split second at eachs throats ?
Why does no one stop and think .. hey .. l love you ..
Because truth be told we all love those around us ..
if the world was ending we would all be in it together RiGhT?
Or lets be more practical if you went to jail who you crying to to bail you out ?
or tell you innocence ?

BLah

Digital Tv Needs to be Upgraded !! NOW !

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 00:49:12 GMT

lol dam alerts I will uprgrade eventually lol when we get our new tv hehe darn future.... and we thought it wouldn't be cool ...
Everything is DiGital .. Super ELecTROnic..... tecnically we live with lots of robots lol (isn't that what we expected ?)
Elementary school.... future dreams ....ahhh .. but mabye we also dreamt us all being rich and being able to afford these things .. I played with one of those touch things ... got games and shit ... played tetris that you slide the shape down the screen with your finger .. fucking way modern then green and black big ass gameboy tetris i was addicted to back in the day ... ANywho ... not buying one of those anytime soon .. I am very satisfied with my mp3
suprised I got that lolz ... ps3 .. ps2 enough "gamadge" for muah

Peace

WiNter

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 16:56:18 GMT

What happened to this horrible winter storm we were getting lol
well ok some ice fell down
I have to buy salt for my steps btw
anywho
Got the new snake SquEezy She is SeXy as shit big too holding her is hot .. mmmhh
need a pic of that
speaking of brit huh yeah now watch me kitty kitty hahhahha
so Corny
My baby is so cute I think he will be tramatized by all the hugging and kissing I give him hehe
SMooCHes!
Damien got my xmas presents yesterday now i'm extra excited for x'mas .. I think our presents go together
My b-day is coming big 21 not really looking forward to the hangover mabye I won't drink lol ( dam tradition)

StRanGe WeaTher

Tue, 16 Dec 2008 20:16:26 GMT

So0o x-mas is coming wooh wooht @! Very eXcited going to be a good morning i'm sire of that lol !
Last night was a good night Drank sUm Bud with my baby and Today he has the day of SWeet night we had .
My lil one has gone crazy lol got this alfalfa hair thing going lol GOtts to fix that ... although there he is trying to brush it ......

Been cleaning all day we are getting our new snake today some kind of PyTHon ick or something
Might be cool .. .It eats mice def Ick
The other snake eats worms wich is fine to me ..
Mo eats cricks and worms (mo is a geicko)
Fish eat fish food yum

Too many tanks in this place if you ask me
one day we will have it all together

PLANS:
1 To build a cabinet to hold all 3 tanks
2 To get our big flatscreen

those should happen after xmas ill let you know ..
But I know one thing We HavE tO upGrAdE tO DIgItAl

HoliDaY TriMmIngS & Quotations

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 02:40:17 GMT

So Today my mother picked me up and we traveled on over to Pa.

I helped my mom decorated her Christmas tree silver and red o0o lala :)

It was very pretty and (fat) lol She had these sparkly snowflakes, lots of them, so

we hung them in the front window and put icicle lights up. There were sparkles everywhere !

Lil Damian loved all the colors and madness and liked touching the "real " tree.

I watched Brittneys "for the record" special on demand .. Sweet I feel for her but don't she

has the money and means to help her "trapped" situation. She is just to "real" of a person to

understand what to do with drama in the celeb. world . Anywho .. bravo ..

Later I had dinner yum yums and played rummi 500 with some wine :) more yum

Then I came home to my love and his cuz Kevin ( I made some SGhetti and now i'm gonna

ReLaX I love my home <3

Been A loNg TiMe Mr. LivE JouRnal

Sat, 13 Dec 2008 04:20:46 GMT

Hello live journal how long we have been apart .. no matter :P
Lets see I live in Riverside now FuN FuN
A lovely apartment we have now with a lil x-mas lights and tree inside
I know what your thinking (aww how grown up ) pfft more traditional I'd say
I mean how could I live in a house without a tree? stockings? or decor?
Let's not forget I have to practice being SanTa for some years to come.
I'm GoNnA Be a DaM GooD OnE! First X'mas or not! lol!
Ahh First X'mas makes you feel all special and twinkly inside lol
THey won't remember any of it but its important to get them started.
(telling him who santa is .. warning him about lights and crowds .)
I sure know if I sat my son on a fat man dresssed in red with a big ole beard he would be the one wailing.
I understand why .. Hes like WHo THe FUck IS thiS! WHy ArE YOU GIviNG me TO HIM !? lol
I should have daddy damien dress like santa he would totaly freak lol

Anywho wish I had more money this x'mas I know we all do :P

GOing to bed now I suppose later

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 17:03:49 GMT

Holiday time wooh halloween just passed then turkey day and xmas and my bday and new years then my baby is poppin out wahoo or ouch :P for who doesnt know im having a lil babay boy he is gonna be crazy cuz all he does is move around im 7 months prego and you would think i was 4 im little ... last time i got weighed i was 117 ...crazy i lost weight .. im trying to get fat though its hard .... lol im buzy buzy got 2 ultra sounds a week and doctor appts wich are only gonna get worse since im farther along :P ... so something crazy happened my mom contacted me after not talking to me in like 6 years she wants to talk and chill we will see what happens she wants to chill today but im waiting for a call ....

Anyone want this double cheeseburger?>

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 03:23:12 GMT

Ugh so much math to do ...
   Then test on Tues. fun fun ...
      So0 glad it rained tonight :) ...
           I can't stand the heat.
                                                         ThAnK GoD FoR KoolAid:)
                                                            Hope to work soon might be fun
                                                               TgiF tommorow shopping and stuff
                                                                  wifebeaters rock.. comfy and cool :)

Doc. appt. on the 6th.. sneaking up on me
Gotta call my g-parents and tell them im engaged tommorow :)

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 04:39:31 GMT

So My due date is on Jan. 17th o0o

wich means im about 11 weeks or so now

Seems a lot but they count back days from your missed because thats when it actually starts CrAzy

right now my baby's heart has started beating (wich im very excited to go hear very soon ) and it has lil fingers and toes .. its developed taste and gum buds for teeth and right now is at the stage for brain development ... its mind is developing right now :O ... and its about the size of a plum

my tummy is a lil bigger i guess ? my top half def is if u know what i mean :P and i am never hungrey bleh ... the smell of cooking hanburgers or pretty much groundbeef makes me sick :P other than that im waiting to pee in draino and see if it says boy or girl by the color and then soon get the ultrasound and find out for real lol ... i dont know what i want .. but fiance wants a boy ... any guesses????

How well do you know your neighbors ?

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 17:22:11 GMT

Ha Ha well lets see .......

my next door neighbors on my right is a handicapped old man who always wants to try to talk to me about creepy subjects like some 25 year old he met at k-mart and had sex with ... gRoSS ... and he lives with his nasty creepy bum brother who is literally a bum and stares at me and bums money from whoever he sees and asks me crap like hey got any weed? .......

My neighbor on my left is an elderly women who lives alone and scares me sometimes when i see her out my kitchen window .... she has family that comes and visits her ... and guys in trucks come to her house all the time usually in the early afternoon to do who knows what but they make a lot of noise .... ..

The neighbor past her likes to have big partys randomly and have ten cars lined up the street .... or its the old lady who knows we arent invited lol .... the neighbor round the block does that too .. id like to know how all those people squeeze in those houses ....

And the neighbor across the street from me is a mom and dad with to kids girl and boy both prolly still in middle school .... kinda normal .. moms gott a lil arm .. and they are always tryin to add onto their house ... they added a porch recently but they cant seem to get it right ... im seeing some fuck ups ... and the roof they keep puttin the shingles on and off .. hopefully they will work it out though lol ....

And the neigbor next to them is a nice man who redid his house for his wife then she died right after :( and two years later .. he went to work and died ... wich happened like a week ago ... awful .... its a beautiful house wish we could buy it ... wonder who is ...

And Thats All foLkS